i cant believe what i thought to never happen to me atleast for a long time, happened, is happening right now. i have so many emotions im frozen..
i cant believe what i thought to never happen to me atleast for a long time, happened, is happening right now. i have so many emotions im frozen..
whats it mean if i lay outside as the sky turns from blue, to pink, to black. do i fall away with the tenderness of the weeping willow. when ever does one cry for help actually bring peace to the love of cracking cement, made to forever lay in the waking promise of time. i see lies in love and i feel pain in freedom. enough is enough but i have let this go on too far now, too far too carry on, but i have got to crawl on. hands and knees they had begged and fallen powerless to the gravtiy beneath their own two fucking feet. what do i do now when i wake up to weeds growing around my bed, but learn to fall alseep in the wilderness.
“will you just be mine? please, because you are the most gorgeous person i have ever seen, and i will not be able to say goodbye unless i know that you are all mine. i dont know how you do it, but your smile is the most charming thing and it physically hurts when you giggle at something that i say. oh the things i would do to you- i honestly know that i could never get enough of you. you are far too sexy to go even a minute without being able to kiss those wonderful soft lips. let me hold you forever and ravish you with all the wonders that you deserve. i will hold you in my arms with no intention of letting you go.” he said.
i hate that i hate you, even in my dreams, because it is now the only place i could ever possibly love you again. even there i know fucking better.
ive got the burning sting of you hanging off my lips
when the hangover sets in, as the sun wakes up, so do the images of you. the ones that are kept lost out in the rum filled ocean waves- and i remember.
the night was coming to an end as we rode side by side alone in his car. finally our voices came to a silence, and not because there wasn’t anything more to talk about but because we had fallen into a comfort between eachother. watching the stoplights turn from red to green as their hue rejected straight off the smooth glass water puddles on the streets- we listened to the beats and enchanted music of what reminded me something of apparat: beautiful. coming to a stop outside my driveway, i looked at him with a smile as i stretched my arms out around him. “sushi next time?” he asked while beginning to let me go, “pinkie promise me” i spued out instantly. our pinkies interlocked as i kissed my thumb and looked into his eyes. i began to match our thumbs together, but he quickly intervened kissing the pad of my skin so softly, so strong. i could only giggle as i got out the passenger door and back into the rain
The clouds move as vicious as the ever turning sea, leaving little patches of delicate blue behind in its every waking part. I get lost in their little swirls and I reach up to touch and disturb each perfect puff of fluff. Oh little sunshine cloud, I wish I knew how you felt upon my skin. I dream of the giggles you would give me as I float in the magically wonder. I would like to take you to bed with me and dream in your clouds forever- wonderlust.
That look- oh it cripples my breathing. The way he looks at me, such pureness in the aggression. Such eagerness in his face seeming to be held back by the little self-control he possess. Trying to sit poised in a fluid circle around a hookah tabled top surrounded by new faces, the smoke filled lungs fill the room. Smell of juicy sweet champagne intoxicated with berry bills sways around me. I imagine that would be exactly how his kiss tasted like, probably even better. If I wouldn’t look like such a fool climbing over this table between us, landing in his lap, I would do it. My body fills with tension as I realize that my hands are taking it out on my cup that i grasp. Does it show in face or is this third glass of red wine finally hinting its warm pink on my cheeks? In that moment I look up to laugh softly along with everyone else at a joke that I didn’t hear and there he was. His eyes locked completely on mine already with no intention on what else was going on around him, just looking at me as if a question with no answer, just answered itself.
A wrinkle in time. What does that really mean but a moment that seems to last forever? Not fluidly following another new moment after another, but stretched out by uneven breathing. The trees still blow with whispers of the wind, and birds swoon overhead. The world continues in one moment forever kissing the precious satin cheeks of once loved lovers. You cannot die in a moment that you were once so alive in. dance in your wrinkle in time and give peace to your soul. Promise brings that your love glows forever never denying the rising sun nor the demanding full moon.
lets get real high and kiss the starry skies. like a distance dream- i can feel the release. your hand grapsed into mine melts away together, while the taste of peace swarms my blood stream. a kiss of the lips and the world turns into the abyss. floating out in the space filled with sweet flickering lights and soft forgotten whispers. sink down into the belief that our minds collide into the fiery sunset, warming the touch, leaving you breathless.
a writers mind is never quiet- inked letters scream but often spoken out loud. if nothing makes sense, it’s because they can’t even explain it themselves.
